Forgiveness, an emotional topic

This topic came up again about how challenging it is to forgive. Oh, some things and hurts are kind of easy to let go. A missed dinner, an appointment, a slight or dig. I have been considering another angle to the forgiveness conundrum: the role of negative emotions. I’d like to call them the painful emotions.

The painful emotions are fear, anxiety, dread, rejection, anger, rage, sorrow, grief, frustration, disgust, disappointment, resentment, indifference, aversion, discontentment, cruelty, hate, envy, jealousy, hurt, embarrassment, shame, guilt, powerlessness, helplessness, doubt, and more. I also wonder if those settled in emotions are showing in how much we weigh. Is our overweightness indicative of how many of those heavy emotions are attached and connected to us? How do they settle into our organs, immune system, brain and energetic fields? The heaviness can keep us from more freely moving forward in life, embracing joy and peace.

Happy-type emotions are happiness, delight, joy, excitement, pleasure, affection, empathy, love, courage, hope, satisfaction, contentment, relief, serenity, peace, tranquility and others

When I am saying the painful emotions, I can feel how heavy they weigh, how oppressive they feel. Saying the happy emotions feel like clouds and feathers, soft and gentle, uplifting, lighter. How light and airy they can feel, leading us to experience bliss.

As I was thinking about this concept about painful emotions and forgiveness, I can see the difficulties in forgiving. With the heavy emotions settling in our cells like silt at the bottom of a lake, the heaviness can hold down to the painful experiences making it more difficult to just let go of hurting history. While we experience the happy emotions, they can be fleeting as they float off.

It grates against me when I hear I should just forgive them. How can that be so easy when the painful emotions have stacked up so high and taken up so much space in my body? The hurts, betrayals, fear, resentment, violations, distrust? It would be nice if there was a special vacuum cleaner that can suck out those emotions so those lighter emotions can settle in and change our cellular memories. Lighten our moods and outlooks leading to freedom from being bogged down and slugging through life.

Throughout my healing journey, I have been blessed to meet people and connecting with healing opportunities. I met Natalya through another friend. She has done some amazing work with me by releasing and even erasing those negative (painful) emotions. Each time, I am feeling lighter and lighter. It is a process to shift and change while integrating the new. It is like an internal spring housecleaning.

We all have our journeys to get toward freedom by letting go. We also have that option to hang onto the painful emotions, too. What to keep, what to let go of. Having help to do the sorting and releasing is always an option.

I will let you know how this process is going, erasing, cleaning out and releasing the painful emotions so I can make room for the lighter emotions and feel the bliss that life can offer. Let me know how it is going for you, too.