I surrender to divine trust

After visiting with a friend about the large changes in my life, she suggested I sit in presence, to surrender to divine trust. Surrender? Give up? Why?

For years, I believed if I surrendered, I would be a LOSER!! When I did give up, that was the label attached to me. That old adage of never give up, never surrender ring in my head. In a family where giving an inch of territory was devastating and seen as a threat, that concept holds a person hostage in a home of hostages. Image that white flag being waved. It took a lot of energy to maintain that place.

So when Katie suggested I surrender, I began the steps to do that. I needed to change my mind about the dictionary meaning of it and look at surrender as a spiritual concept. Continuing to fight tooth and nail to hold on so I can still have a chance at being right. I hated always being wrong and a loser in my family.

When I began to look at surrender from a spiritual perspective, I can see how it became more about letting go, releasing something for something better; something that brings more peace and allows for more freedom.  Those old beliefs and patterns that keep us stuck, trying to get ahead while clawing and scratching our way to gain inches. Spiritual surrender can offer an easier path by moving obstacles to the side or even just lessening the resistance. Our efforts can be more meaningful as we surrender to move forward and find that inner peace and even contentment. What if all that energy I was using to keep my position was really holding me back from something better, to an opening door of other opportunities?

So surrender means letting of something that may no longer serve me, clearing that hurdle, or detouring around it so I can have access or embrace the new. Even when there is the unfamiliar, I am choosing to believe it can be the next step to moving forward. If I did not surrender the struggles and resentments I had toward my ex, I would not have made room for the love I have now. My husband is so different and loving and sweet. Even though it was challenging to let go of the pain and resentment, I was only harming me, not him. Something like this is so important to remember.

Spiritual surrender is moving to another stage. So I will sit in the moment and space so I can see what will be opening up for me to step into next.